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Wednesday, 12 March 2008

  • Sometimes I forget how self centered people are. Like - all people. I try to think of myself as a caring and considerate individual who is concerned with the lives and feelings of my friends and family, and I think I am... but it doesn't keep me from being so caught up in myself sometimes. I guess maybe it is not completely bad, because it is important to keep ourselves together for the most part. I guess lately I have been searching for more purpose in my life and I have been doing alot of self evaluation, and honestly I am kind of tired of it. I want to just live for a while without having to think about it so much. Is it wrong that I just want to be here and enjoy my life and my friends and not worry too much about what I am going to be doing in five years or the rest of my life? Because right now I really am not too worried about finding the guy I am going to marry or the perfect job I want to have forever, or figure out where I want to live and settle down and have kids and an SUV and all that crap. Why is there so much pressure to get everything figured out??? I am only 22 freaking years old. I just want to be stupid and stay up late and watch movies with my friends. Is that ok?!?!?? Because what is life anyway except for the relationships you make and the memories you have?

    Anyway..... I need a roommate for the fall. Just throwing that out there.

Tuesday, 04 March 2008

  • It's snowing! How great. It is quite refreshing to see the whole world (as far as I can see it out my window) covered in snow rather than ice.

    I just really wanted to say that. And since I was up anyway. Why am I awake still?
    I took the blue pills- I don't know why I can't sleep. Maybe I will take some more.



    The car will hopefully be ready sometime tomorrow. That will be exciting. Except then I will be less $1600. Grrr.....

    Oh well, what can you do, ya know?

    It is really pretty out. I went outside for a little bit. It doesn't seem like anything enough to cancel school; however, I would appreciate not having to walk all the way there when it is this cold and snowy, especially since I have been so sickly lately.

    Ummm.... maybe I will try to sleep now. Or I'll watch some friends. Who knows.

Thursday, 28 February 2008

  • So. The car is more than just a little sick. It is going to cost like $1200 to fix it. Which is kinda crappy, because that seems like more than the car is worth- but I guess it has gotten me pretty far without much trouble at all; there is no reason to believe that it won't last a while longer. And I love my little buick.

    It is just money, right? Oh wait- I don't have any money? Oh, it will all work out.
     
    It's kinda sad not having a car right now. I feel a little helpless. Things could be worse though, so I am happy that I have everything else that I have going for me right now. Like my space heater in my room. And my wonderful friends who help me with anything and everything. Definitely my space heater though.



    Hmm.... I just want to play my clarinet. Forever.

Tuesday, 26 February 2008

  • My car is in the hospital. It has a... bladder problem? I don't know. I do know that I am more or less stranded here for the next couple days/however long it takes.

    Today will be the first day in 11 days that I have not been to Wal-Mart.  I have been to a Wal-Mart 15 times in those 11 days. This was my experiment, which was kind of the opposite of Erin's new years resolution to see how long she could go without going to Wal-Mart. What I thought was interesting, is I never had a hard time going there, or having a reason to go. I never went just to go, or just to keep my record, and most of the time it wasn't even my suggestion to go there. Also good to note that most of the time I did not buy anything. And, the rule that we were not allowed to leave Wal-Mart until we saw someone we knew was adhered to (with only slight exceptions in extreme cases) as long as we were at our Wal-Mart (Campbell; which was 80% of the times). It was concluded without reservation that Wal-Mart is, in fact, the devil. Not that I feel like I should stop shopping there. Nevertheless, a good, fun, wholesome experiment.

    I really wish I could be somewhere....

    "We gave you everything.
    You could have been anything.
    We gave you everything.
    You could have done anything.
    But you imagine a fall
    With no one at all
    To catch you"

     

     

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